Delusional Bedtime Story is out now...

Hello friends, it's me again - here to tell you that my new song "Delusional Bedtime Story" is now out in the world!

You can listen here.

This is my third song that I've released and I still feel extremely new to this whole process. People often ask me "how does it feel" and if I'm totally honest, it's completely overwhelming and I actually don't know how I feel yet.

These songs, have always been so personal to me, they're about my personal life and even recording them in the studio was emotional (I honestly don't know how Taylor Swift does it :'))

And now putting them out into the world and telling parts of the stories behind them is also emotional. But it's also somewhat healing and makes me feel so proud of how far I've come, because what once felt so ripe and raw now feels so long ago now.

It's beautiful that situations that once had me anxious and sleepless, have now become art that I'm beyond proud of.

They've now given me opportunities to connect with new people and even got me on the radio. Guess that's karma for you.

And even though this whole process is new and a bit overwhelming, I feel insanely thankful to the people who've been listening and enjoying the music. I'm so glad that it's landed with you well and I can't wait to share more with you.

This new song is really special to me - its about the ways that I coped with an uncomfortable ending.

As many of us do, I used to lie in bed and replay everything, I'd cringe, I'd feel guilty and I'd spiral.
So I started to tell myself things that would make me feel better.

"In 10 years time you'll probably run into each other and you'll make up and it'll be fine"
"maybe in 3 years time she'll write you a letter and apologise"
"maybe you'll run into each other at the shops and you'll laugh about all this".

I started to call these thoughts my 'Delusional Bedtime Stories' because they would calm me down and help me sleep.

This song is about that and I wanted it to sound like falling backwards into cold water.

In playing it to people, it's been funny to realise that I'm not the only person that does this.

A friend said to me "god, I'm glad you wrote about this because I thought I was the only one" – and that's honestly all I ever dreamed of.

So it's yours now. It was about moments from my life, but I hope you listen to it and find your own way to relate.

It's now on every streaming service. Please add it to a beautifully curated playlist, make a reel with it, share it on your stories, whatever you can.

Tell me if you like it (don't bother if you don't I'm too sensitive lol)

Thank you forever!
You can listen to it here.
Essy